To the loves of my life...

It's Valentines Day, and since people make a big deal about celebrating it these days, i think it's a time to reflect on the love aspect, not the history of it. Besides, it's not the day that matters, but the reminder that you have special people in your life and you should acknowledge, and tell them you love them.... before it's too late.

And since i'm spending this day in the hospital watching over Muuzi and Mahdi as they sleep, it makes me feel so grateful that they are in my life.

For better or for worst. We are family. :)

Happy V Day.

Mundzir and Ayesha Erickson.

If you've been reading my blog for a long time, you probably know that I am a huge fan of How i Met your Mother.

I used to feel like i was Robin, and could never imagine myself settling down.

And then i met my Marshall/Muuzi and realised i'm more like Lily.

Then i noticed that Marshall and Lily are a lot like me and Muuzi.

We have heated arguments about things sometimes, but at the end of the day what really is important is that we love each other more than we care about what we were fighting for. I give my friends this same advice, in relationships if the argument isn't really going anywhere, just give in. You are not losing anything, in fact you loose more when you stand your ground, much like Robin and Ted's relationship, where neither would budge on what they want.

Plus Lily was pregnant around the same time i was, and we face a lot of the same issues voiced out in the episodes.

Then now that they are parents, they have a hard time finding a balance between being there for their friends and trying to raise their baby Marvin/Mahdi.

We are family

Here's some of my fave family pictures of us three so far. :)

Mahdi and Ayahanda.

And of course Mahdi and Me.

It's sad that we don't have that many pictures together... but we don't really have time to take pics that often. But we definitely have fun as a family. 

I love my family so much. These two boys are my world. :)

Muuzi ROCKS!!!

My husband spoils me SO MUCH...

I've been wanting an oven for ages, and since i've started earning my own money again, i've been saving to buy myself an oven.

Finally went down with Muuzi to BEST in OU to get one....Being the impulse shopper that he is, we ended up bring home a additional electric grill as well.

I usually frown upon Muuzi's impulse buys, but this grill was a FANTASTIC addition to our kitchen. Since we both are on a mission for healthier food, grilling things instead of frying them was a delight.

Now we have BBQ Sundays, were every weekend we'll have something yummy thats cooked on the grill for lunch. Here's some pics of our first attempt. :)

AWESOME Grilled Spinach Burgers.

Ingredients: Spinach, Cooked garlic and onions, and minced meat.

Mush ingredients into patties, and grill

Add fresh salad, dijon mayo and toasted buns. YUM!!

The big 3-0!!!

Muuzi turns 30 today!! 

He's told me about how we'd spend his 30th, ever since we were just friends back in 2006..... he said he'd have a kickass party, with music, lotsa people, in a cool club, and we'd all party the night away.

As it turns out, he's spending it in bed cuz he has the flu... the only music playing is the sound of a 2 month old baby screaming, and i don't think we are leaving this house anytime soon to go to a club. :P

 I did attempt to get a party together for last night (sunday), it wasn't a crazy club party, but a nice dinner with lots of friends would have still been better than nothing... But unfortunately, Muuzi had a wedding to go to tonight... so that plan had to be scrapped..

In the end, we just had a family lunch, and at a last minute got the boys and mashi to come... since most everyone else was still K-Oed from attending the Future Music Festival Asia the night before.

Mahdi's all ready to celebrate ayah's bday!

Muuzi and the boys playing 'Draw Something'.

We had lunch at The Bee in PUBLIKA solaris dutamas, and had some delicious burgers and Malteser Chocolate cake that i got from Raindough (i simple love their homemade cakes!) for dessert...

 

Malteser Chocolate cake!! Super yummeh!!!

After makan, we decided to take a stroll in the mall, because none of us had ever been there before... honestly, other than the graffiti art and all the hipster crap, the mall sucks. Boo.

 

Bday man and his son.

The Mooky's :)

Mundzir, I know you don't really read my blog.... but i'm so glad you are in my life. Looking forward to the next 30++ birthdays that we'd celebrate together as a family. :)

Our first family outing!

1 month into 2012...

What... It's february already?? Where does the time go?

My baby boy is getting so big now... It's unbelievable. I'm going to be biased and say he's the best baby in the world..

In all the hoopla of the delivery, pantang and adapting to motherhood.. I realized tht i never made a list of my New Year resolutions.

Here goes.. My 2012 New Years resolution!
- Lose the pregnancy weight...
- go to the freakin gym that u've been paying for blindly for the last year.
- Cook at home more...
- Learn masakan melayu
- Learn to bake!
- Be an awesome mom
- Refresh on photography skills
- Be there for your friends.
- Be a better wife.
- Be a happier person in general.. ( Muuzi says i frown a lot.. and i always look unhappy, which is something he says Mahdi gets from me... This must change.)
- Be POSITIVE!
- Do more vector work..
- Start concentrating on freelancing and writing for pizzzamagazine.com
- Travel more Or at least try.
- stop dressing like a hipster teenager.. And realize u are a 27 year old mother this year and should start acting and dressing like an adult (about time too)

The Delivery Story

I had been having these painful but apparently 'mild' contractions for the pass two days.. And as a result i hadn't had a good nights rest since.

I was a bit upset that my due date had passed with no sign of the baby.. So i had gone to sleep early (if u can call waking up every few mins in pain sleep.)

Anyway, i was almost asleep when i felt this searing pain in my abdomen.. Muuzi (who was in the living room) rushed into the bedroom, cuz apparently i had let out a scream of pain in my sleep..

Muuzi decided we should go to the hospital.. Again.

I wasn't too crazy about the idea of being told to go home after another round of poking and proding.. But i figured the hospital would prolly have painkillers that could b useful.

Sidetrack for a bit...
On our way to the hospital i told Muuzi to drive slowly, because i didn't want to rush there only to be told to go home.. So we took a slow drive to Selayang and were just about to turn into a flyover when suddenly, almost like slow motion.. There was this guy on a superbike that fell a few feet from us, his bike did cartwheels in flames in front of our car. While the driver skidded into the divider.. We were both so shocked and wanted to stop, but we had already entered the flyover.. And i was still having painful contractions. Luckily i saw a few cars that were behind us stopped to help the motorcyclist.. I keep thinking if we had been speeding that night, without a doubt, that cartwheeling superbike would have hit us for sure!

We arrived at the hospital about 2am, i was poked and proded as usual, but the suddenly the baby's heartbeat monitor started beeping and all the doctors and nurses started panicking around me... Nobody was telling me why it was beeping, which was annoying.

From the chatter, i realised that i was 4cm dilated and the baby was ready to come out, but the real panic was because they were discussing whether they should call Dr Roslan at 2am to deliver my baby.

Ps: Turns out, Dr Roslan was the head of the entire OBGYN department.. Meaning he was everyones boss.. And they seemed terrified at the thought of waking him up at 2am to tell him the news.

Finally they asked a senior dr (not Dr. Roslan) and decided to burst my water bag and wait for me to dilate somemore before calling Dr. Roslan at a more godly hour.

When my water bag was burst, it was uncomfortable... Hot liquid was streaming down. I started panicking... 'omg this is finally happening!'. The nurses told Muuzi to get my things, cuz we were finally going to the labor room. Muuzi had his calm face on, but i could tell he was freaking out.

We waited in the labor room for a few hours then at 4am a female Dr came in to check on me... Turns out i was still at 4cm so she gave me oxytocin to induce the labor and make dilate faster. I did not know that this meant harder, faster, stronger contractions... At one point the contraction was so painful that i literally wanted to scream out loud.. Muuzi kept me calm and told me to concentrate on my breathing (which helped a lot).

Anyway, that went on for another 4 hours when finally Dr Roslan came to check on me at 8am. I was so relieved to see him, unfortunately he didnt have good news.. I still had not dilated and was still at 4cm. He said i would need to have an emergency C Section immediately.

As soon as we agreed, i was prepped and rolled into the operating room. I was terrified and more so when i found out Muuzi couldnt be there with me.

I considered having a General Anaestetic.. So i wouldnt know what was going on but went with a spinal tap instead. I was shaking, from the fear, the still painful contractions and the fact that i was suddenly naked in a room full of people... Plus it was really cold.

As soon as the anaesteolgist did the tap i was numb from the waist down. The pain from the contractions completely stopped, it was so relaxing that i almost fell asleep. About 30 mins into the procedure i felt this jerking feeling on my abs then i heard Dr Roslan announce that the baby was out using Forceps.. A few seconds later i heard this faint cry of my baby.

Unashamed of it, i got all choked up and started crying as well (discreetly). I was relieved, but at the same time i was overwhelmed. OMG I have a son! I looked around but i couldn't see the baby, which made me want to cry even more. Suddenly the nurse came next to me and showed me this tiny pale little man. He looked at me thru his tiny sepet eyes and i said 'hi mahdi boy' :) (not an ideal story, but soon after that, i threw up... prolly due to fatigue and the fact that my stomach was stil opened on the table..)

I had some complications during the surgery, apparently my uterus did not contract normally so the placenta didn't come out naturally like it should. Dr Roslan had to take it out manually, and i lost a lot of blood... So after everything was done, i had to have 2 pints of blood transfused. Baby boy had a tiny scar on his forehead because of the forceps used.. but Dr. says it will go away by itself.

My labor was a long, painful and some parts were funny... but at the end of it, i got the most amazing little 'bundle of joy'.... But would i want to go thru all that again for another baby?

-Maybe.

It's finally OVER...

I simply cannot explain the feeling i have right now.

It might seem sappy beyond words but it's just an amazing miracle that has made all the shit i've gone thru in the pass few months worth it.

My baby boy is finally here, and i couldn't be happier.

So without further a due, i'm extremely proud to introduce my little angel,

Muhammad Mahdi Latif bin Mundzir.

 

born on New Years Eve, 31st December 2011, 9.44am at a healthy 3.1kg's.

 

First family picture ever. :)

I am currently overwhelmed by motherhood, and relieved that everything went well.. details on the delivery process coming soon. :)

Happy New Year everybody! 

xoxo!

Happy Anniversary Mundzir Latif

Today i'm celebrating the 3rd year anniversary since me and muuzi decided to upgrade our friendship 3 years into a real relationship...


BEST. DECISION. EVER.

Sometimes you gotta get take a chance on something great... of course you probably won't know it's that great at that moment, but how will you know if you don't try.

When i think of the road i didn't take... it scares me.

I'm so thankful for everything i have.. and i'm so thankful i have Muuzi.

Eventho he's in Bali now... and i'm here in KL, but i figured it's not this one day that counts but more the days in between that counts :)

xoxo
I love you so much Muuzi.

KPJ Antenatal Class

Yesterday (Saturday), me and Muuzi experienced a day of learning in KPJ Selangor Antenatal class...

The class is held for first time parents like us to learn everything we'd need to know about the birth process, breastfeeding, baby grooming, and just answering any question we might have..

It's only about RM80 percouple, and i found the lectures very resourceful, but unfortunately was distracted by Muuzi falling asleep every 5 mins. With the RM80 you pay, you get breakfast, lunch and tea breaks... as well as a goodie bag with a bunch of useful pamphlets, printed notes and a free box of baby soap (sponsored by Johnsons)

The nurse giving the seminar was a 65 year old lady with a teaching degree and a masters... so she thought she was pretty big stuff.. she kept sharing intimate details about her life with us, eventho no one really wanted to know. But she was definitely resourceful, that is for sure..

The best part was when she started showing us videos for breastfeeding, and a gruesome video of a woman giving birth and having a episiotomy (OMGaaaah, the horrror!)... thru it all, i honestly still haven't decided on a birthing plan.. they all look equally horrifying.  

After the 8am - 6.30pm class, me and Muuzi had to rush off to Saujana Resort for his Ex-bandmate Hafiz's wedding ceremony... newly weds Izal and Leng were there  as well, since the rest of the boys of One Buck Short were in Kuching.

 

Mrs and Mr Mooky

 

I seriously can't get over how big i've gotten recently... like how am i even upright is a miracle.

A few more weeks to the due date... and we still have so much to figure out.

I'm thinking of delivering the baby *naturally* in Selayang Hospital, and honestly that's about as far as my planning has gotten.


*Naturally* may involve some heavy narcotics... at this point i'm not sure how bad the pain will be, so let's not be all heroic and rule out drugs just yet.

Lost and Found..

So we went to the baby doctor this morning, everything looks fine and dandy.... we saw his face clearly for the first time, and i'm pretty sure he'll look a lot like Muuzi... but we have to wait to see if i'm right.

Anyway, after our appointment we had lunch with the boys at Berjaya then Muuzi sent me home before he went back to work..

At home, i finished up some freelance work and spent the rest of the day cleaning up the bookshelves... then i found this cd with all our prewedding pictures on it. Ahhh... memories. :)
I absolutely love our prewedding pictures... mostly because we were relaxed and they were shot in KLPAC (which i love!). Our actual day wedding pictures were a bit more rushed and to think of it i don't even have a picture of myself and muuzi posing by the titiwangsa lake (where we got married) in our pink ensemble.. Boo! :(

Neway, here's some of my absolute FAVE pictures from our prewedding album.

We took this picture seconds before kene halau from the koi park.. :P So rebellious.

19.11.11

I woke up early this morning in fury of excitement because today, I get my own car...

Albeit i didn't buy this car, with my own money... it's better because someone loves me enough to buy it for me. Anyway, doesn't make it any less mine. Besides, i've made it clear that when i start working again, i'm going to take over the car payments.. which i think is more then fair.

Anyway, since Muuzi was working late on friday.. getting him to wake up on saturday morning was difficult. But finally we were both up and ready to go.. even mama wanted joined us to go pick up the car. But something weird happened when we got downstairs to our condo parking lot, the space usually inhabitant by Muuzi's Orange Satria NEO was already replaced with a purple Myvi.... yup MY PURPLE MYVI.

On top of that it was decorated with strings of glittery boas and a big ribbon. I was beyond surprised, because as i've said many times, the man isn't very discreet... but this time i was truly a surprised.

yes, it's purple and i insisted that it comes with a touchscreen GPS (so i will never get lost.. teehee)

Words cannot describe how lucky i feel today, and how i feel so blessed to be with the person that i love and still have the things i want... All i need now is to install the carseat and wait for my baby to arrive so we can take him jalan2. 

Mooky and Ayesha's Quackin' Baby Shower!

It's done!!

And soooo much fun, i got too see so many friends that i haven't seen in ages... lotsa friends and family members, lotsa foooood, and LOTS of prezzzzies for my baby boy!!

Warning... LOTS of pictures in this post.

 I am totally obsessed with this cake that i got made from Raindough...

it is simply AWESOME!!

 

Buffet Line...

Some duckies got loose and went swimming in our blue punch.

The yummeh food... notice the blue and yellow dadih Ezani's mom made for me!

Besties Mashi, Nana (who happens to be 7months pregnant btw!) and Me

My lil cousin Aleesya..

Papa and Mama duck!

Aunty Alia and Me

Aunty Alia and Aunty Leng having duck Cake

Uncle Mac (i mean Tok Mac? hehe)

My GrandMaaaaaa

My Aunties and Uncles

Alia having her second slice of Duck Cake...

Deco by Sarah and Winder of Chenta Weddings... and they set it all up in 15 mins!

Sarah and Winder rock!

Oh baby in this pic was borrowed btw... say hi to Foza's boy, Thaqif!

The pool view

Uncle Iffat, Tukang Masak tak berbayar.

Lanterns!! i've been obsessed with having lanterns since my wedding.. but that didn't happen. so having it now was so satisfying :D

Tok likes Ducky cake too..

 

None this could have happened with out my Sister, my Bestfriend, My bro-in-law and my Man... I love you all so so so much!! :D

Thanks to EVERYONE for coming, xoxo 

The Daddy and Mommy-to-be :)