How i wish...

I could depend on the person i really need right now..

But all i keep getting from her is negativity, paranoia and superstition..

How is telling me that she had a dream that she was holding a baby with no hands suppose to make me feel? Or that theres a 'jin' following me around trying to take my baby away..

I wish she'd stop forcing the idea of a c-section on me.. Just because you did it, doesn't mean doing it any other way is stupid.

Seriously, i wish she could just listen to the things she says before she says them..

I feel like i really really need my mother right now, someone to tell me everything will be ok, not someone to put more negativity in my already pro-negative mind.