he's deleted me.....

listening to: vanessa carlton - white houses

i know i should be happy.... pretty much my life is as free as i want it to be...
i can do whatever i want.... doesnt mean i dont think about him tho..
i miss him..... i do
but he's deleted me from his life....
makes me think.....

i guess i'll just have to keep my self occupied then....
i don't i'll ever learn to love properly again...
everythings such a game.
love sounds like such a lame concept... i dont believe in it nemore.
life is already complicated enuff without it..... get what i mean??

i still thought we would have made it.......
it's only another two weeks before he finishes his internship..
but i'll never forget what he said to me that day.
the day he said that i, am a failure........
that will never sum up to anything without his help.

maybe he's right..... i am useless, that much i know.
but his words cut me so deep... i don't think i'll ever forget it.
because the one person in the world.... who believed in me is no more.
and here i am. alone.
with nothing...

ME