REGRET

i did something i shouldn't have...
read something i shouldn't have...
and now i'm paying the price... all those bad bad memories of the three weeks i spent in hell all rushed back into my head... i hate it.. i wished it would all just go away.. i love him more than anything.. and to think that he might not be there one day just kills me...
the thing is he has been totally honest with me.. he even defended me.. i feel bad that i crossed the line.. maybe if he was lying it would make it worth the trouble.. but he wasn't he was honst with me.. and now i am destroyed by the fact that i'm the one with the problem.. apparently i still have trust issues...which is a total drag! i know i can change.. i have to. i just do...for him.


DAMAGED - TLC
I know I'm kind of strange to you sometimes
don't always say what's on my mind
you know that I've been hurt by some guy
but I dont wanna mess up this time

and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think I'm kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged

I might look through you're stuff
for what I don't want to find
or I might just set you up

to see if you're all mine
I'm a little paranoid

from what I've been through
you don't know what you've got yourself into

and I really really really care
and I really really really want you
and I think im kinda scared
cause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

my heart's at a low
I'm so much to manage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
i'm falling in love
there's one disadvantage
I think you should know
that I've been damaged
I really really really want you
and I think I'm kind of scared c
ause I don't want to lose you
if you're really really really there
then maybe you can hang through
I hope you understand
It's nothing to you

I'm Sorry and i love you


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